He said no.
Because that's how my life goes.
He said it wasn't because he didn't feel the same back and that he really does think we'd be good together. It's just that he's working through things and doesn't know what he really wants out of life with career, family, or kids. He's not ready for that serious of a commitment. Uh huh. How many times have I heard that now? I actually do believe him though. He's always been very honest and upfront with everything, and I know he is going through something right now. But it just sucks.
I think this was the first time I've ever really asked someone out like that. And I really thought he would say yes. We've got good chemistry, and I know he's been into me for years too. I think we would be amazing together.
How old do you have to be to know what you want out of life? I know that's not fair and doesn't work for everyone, but I've known I wanted love and family since I was in high school, and it's been so hard to wait this long. My ex-husband said he wasn't ready for it all at 26, unless there was more he wasn't telling me. Then my "friends with benefits" guy who I really liked as more wasn't sure at 28. The most recent ex is 38 and says he doesn't know. But he cheated on me, so who believes anything he says. And now this guy at 32. I mean, after so many people saying the same thing, you kind of figure you're the common denominator. Is that just it? Am I not meant to find it?
Or maybe I already have...
At least I've got him.
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