Downhill

I don't think that aisle thing is going to happen.  He's not doing well.  He's miserable and has been ready to "go" for a long time now.  He's on a ton of medication so I don't think he's in much pain, but breathing is so very difficult and he's very weak.  He's got a catheter so he doesn't have to make the long and slow journey to the bathroom all the time anymore.

I don't know if it's the meds or what, but sometimes he gets so confused and seems to be very foggy.  We'll be talking about one thing, and he'll come out of left field with something completely different.  Sometimes what he says is just gibberish and makes no sense at all.

It's so hard to see him like that.  He keeps saying how he doesn't want us to remember him like this.  Whenever he says it, we'll bring up a nice memory from the past to try to cheer him up.  Sometimes it works. 

He's so ready to go, but his body isn't cooperating yet.  The hospice nurse said that it can take a week or two for the body to start shutting down once a person hits the point he's at.  We're in the middle of week two now, I believe. She comes again today, and it'll be interesting to hear what she has to say.

This is all just so sad!  :(