I kinda saw some sea turtles released back into the ocean yesterday. It was crazy crowded, but cool to kinda see them swimming away. We got there late, and the best vantage point was from standing in the water a little ways. My pants got a good bit wet. As we were walking back to the car, I saw a man go to the farthest picnic table (which really wasn't that far) and totally strip down, dry off and change clothes. Awkward, but he had a nice ass. My "sister" drove, and I think we almost died about ten times. Seriously, she drives crazy, and we almost rear ended people at least seven or eight times, no lie. We went to a buffet pizza place for dinner, and she had her daughter try a bite of one of the dessert ones thinking she'd like it. Nope. That girl cried and screamed like I've never seen her before. It was rather embarrassing. She finally got her calmed down, but for some reason thought it would be a good idea to offer it to her again. And the girl started crying and carrying on all over again. It was awesome. I do want kids, right?
I had a plan for today to get my first mortgage payment taken care of. I went through a different bank than I normally use to get the home loan. I just learned yesterday (although they said they'd told me with the original paperwork... nope!) that although I set up my mortgage loan through their bank, it had actually been serviced by another one. The bank I normally use, actually. I think I would have remembered them telling me that, but oh well. I had been planning to go into my bank today to get an auto draft set up so I wouldn't have to deal with mailing checks, but I logged into my online account this morning and found my mortgage info sitting right there with a nice little "Make Payment" button. So, there went my need to go into the bank and my plans to go grocery shopping afterward. Now, on this lovely day off, I don't need to go anywhere. I kinda do need food, but I'm content surviving off what little is here for the day and going shopping after work tomorrow. Imma be a bum today.
I've been thinking more about the online dating thing, and I'm still not sure if I want to try it yet. I created this little gem this morning...
I'd always wanted to attempt to make one, and figured I'd give it a shot. It's funny, but it's also kinda not. I'm 30, have no idea if I'll be able to get pregnant or not and really don't want to sort through all the BS that is dating. Can't I just put it all out there and reel in a winner? I don't think it works like that.
Once again I'm rethinking things with the ex-boyfriend. We had dinner at his (our) place Monday night and watched a movie while cuddling on the couch. Seriously, if he had given me half as much attention as he does now, I could have overlooked a ton of our other issues when we were together. That's the kind of affection I need on a regular basis to feel secure. If I feel loved by a guy, the other stuff doesn't seem as bad. But are his other things that bad? Would I want to have a lifelong partner like him even if he did give me that affection? Ugh! He's moving out this weekend, and I'm going over there Saturday evening to clean the carpets and whatever else needs to be done. We've both pretty much implied that we want to have sex that night. I think we've got to stop that if I have any chance of wanting to start to date again. Do I want to let him go?
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