Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Sigh...

Talked to him about it that night and felt a little better.  Had another issue Sunday, and we had another talk.  I don't know how I feel about this.  It just seems so hard.  We're not lovey-dovey like I'm used to.  Like I need.  Is that to be expected when you get older?  We're not growing together.  Our relationship doesn't seem to be progressing.  We're just going through the motions of a couple living together.

We're taking a little vacation up north in a couple of weeks.  Spending time with some of his friends and family, and a day trip to NYC.  I keep thinking I'll be able to tell better about our relationship during and after the trip.  I know I just need to give it all more time, but how long?

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

All Moved In

Picked the worst weekend to do it.  One hundred degree heat then a hurricane-like storm at the end of it.  Other than the weather, the move went well.  Got it all done in a pretty short amount of time.

Now's the hard part.  I really don't know how I'm feeling about it.  Living with him just isn't going like I thought it would.  Yet, maybe?  Maybe it just needs more time.  He seems different since we moved in, and I really need to talk to him about it.  I wanted to give it a few days because maybe he's feeling weird about it too.  It doesn't seem to be getting better though and seems worse since the pets came home.

I'm bad at the talking though.  Either I say the wrong thing or can't even manage to get out what it is I really want to.  This sucks :(