Saturday, April 5, 2014

Last night I dreamed...

So many things that jumped around to many different settings and subjects.

The boyfriend and I were in a jewelry store looking for an engagement ring, but for some reason he wouldn't directly ask the woman behind the counter for what he wanted.  I was getting flustered and spit out, "Do you have a...."  She informed me that I would have to put a nonrefundable deposit in this little envelope thing and take it to the store next door just to look at, not even buy, loose diamonds.  I was really mad then and started yelling that I'd never been to a jewelry store that did that and demanded to know why they didn't have rings for me to try on.  She stayed calm and explained the store policy to me and asked if I'd like to make the deposit.  I said no and felt bad that she didn't get a "sale", so I left her a tip.

I was at some fair type thing and ran into my infertile cousin.  I asked her if she or my aunt had ever been formally diagnosed with anything, then had to actually explain to her what endo is.  She then walked me over to a booth with two "adoption specialists."  Two men in suits and ties who kept dodging my questions.  They wouldn't answer with any specifics and really didn't seem to know anything.

I was at some party in this really expensive house.  I kept running into people I knew and stopped to chat with them all for awhile.  Some man walked up to me while I was talking to friends and joined the conversation.  After awhile it was just him and me, and he took me by the arm and led me down a really narrow hallway with half a dozen bedroom doors partially open.  Everyone inside them was having sex.  I tried to get away, but he led me into a bathroom and kind of shoved me down onto a built in bench.  I tried to crawl away, but he came up behind me and grabbed my hips.  (Luckily that one ended there.  Pretty scary.)

I was somehow back in Mississippi in my old house with the ex and roommate and his new girlfriend.  The ex and I were back together, and it didn't feel right.  All this time that's passed and the events that have occurred since we split up had all still happened... we had still gotten divorced, I had still been with the now boyfriend.  But we were somehow back together, even though it didn't feel right.  I got to see my old dog and met the new dog he'd gotten.  They had been overfeeding my cat, and I told them the food was expensive and they would be buying the next bag.

These were in no particular order and just a few of the many that came and went all night it seemed.  I woke up feeling a little confused.

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