Saturday, July 16, 2011

What happened was...

A week ago today I let someone kiss me who shouldn't have.  Someone who is very much off the market but certainly doesn't act like it.  I knew he was off-limits, but let him kiss me anyway.  Several times.  I was drunk.  I was lonely.  He was gorgeous.  It was hard to say no to the beautiful man trying to seduce me.  It was obvious he hadn't been faithful to his other half for a very long time.  He said they had an "understanding", a relationship of convenience of sorts, but he was drunk too.  I didn't believe him when he said it and I still don't.

He fell asleep on my bed.  I slept in the living room.  I woke up to a text from him asking, "Where are you?"   As the morning progressed he tried putting the moves on again, but I was much more clearheaded.  He was quite persistent and didn't seem to understand why I wouldn't have sex with him.

Ugh.  I still feel guilty, but I know it was a drunken mistake that I've learned from and will not be repeating, so I'm trying to let it go.

1 comment:

  1. A lot of people in your shoes might have taken that "mistake" a lot further. Try to not be so hard on yourself. You kept your distance, which isn't always so easy to do while drunk...

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