I almost lost it today. Not exactly sure what... my emotional "stability", my sanity, my grasp on reality. Whatever it is, it almost got gone.
I had a freak out. Not quite a panic attack, but it felt like something close to it. I've been feeling the build up all week, and this morning it all exploded and I forgot how to deal with everything. I forgot that it is going to be okay one day. I forgot that it has to be. I don't feel like I know that deep down anymore.
I wanted to give up... on everything. I still do a little, actually. I just don't know how to keep going. I don't know what to do. I don't know that hoping it'll get better a little more day by day is going to cut it anymore.
Don't be afraid to ask for that help lady. Sometimes, having someone to talk to can make more of a difference than you would ever imagine! Thinking of you!
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