Sunday, July 10, 2011

Too much alcohol...

...and the stupid things it will make you do.  Well, not make you do, but give you more courage to do.  Things you would never do sober.  Things that go against your personal moral code.  Things that you regret when the buzz wears off.

That said... I did something stupid last night.  Something stupid and wrong.  The absolute worst part is that I knew it was wrong and did it anyway.  Thanks, alcohol.  I debated with myself the entire time, trying to talk myself out of it, but did it anyway.  I feel like such a terrible person now.  It's not so bad compared to what others do, but it goes against what I believe.  I never thought I would be the kind of person to do something like that.

That said... I feel so weak.  I've felt that way for such a long time and just wanted to feel better.  The opportunity presented itself and I took it.  Honestly, I did feel better.  I felt reassured.  Now I feel awful.

2 comments:

  1. You are NOT a bad person. I'm sorry you have regrets though... just keep moving forward and try to put it behind you.

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  2. Thank you! :) I'm feeling better about it all today.

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